Writing Honestly

I have not come to study literature because reading and writing were second nature to me, but rather because a thoughtful narrative almost always draws me in and I love the possibilities existent in language.  In fact, writing has never come easily for me.  I have always admired those that can put pen to paper producing an idea "whole and entire" as Woolf puts it.  The writing that we love speaks some truth to us - it is honestly given and we come back for it.  I want my writing to have this honesty.  If it lasts for an hour or beyond my life, it needs honesty.

This must come from me but not me mingled with the external critic.  But how to erase the inhibiting critical voice, and how to move from distraction and anxiety?

While browsing at a bookshop this summer in Austen, Texas I came across an introduction by Henry Drinker to one of Anthony Trollope's novels.  Driker explains that Trollope lost considerable favor after he candidly stated in his autobiography that each day including Sundays at 5:30am after having read over the previous days work he wrote 250 words every fifteen minutes until breakfast time.  Apparently he lost the look of an inspired artist since he wrote so mechanically and for money.  However, what a mind is that, steeping with that security and abundance of clarity - a brilliant one really.  On reading this I felt much as Woolf did when she notices the student in the library next to her.  Her mind is wandering and his is clearly steadfast.  She notes the difference with irony:

"The student who has been trained in research at Oxbridge has no doubt some method of shepherding his question past all distractions till it runs into its answer as a sheep runs into its pen.  The student by my side, for instance, who was copying assiduously from a scientific manual was, I felt sure, extracting pure nuggets of the essential ore every ten minutes or so.  His little grunts of satisfaction indicated so much" (A Room of One's Own)

I am not sure how to lead my questions past all distractions or to extract pure nuggets of anything but I think I will start with honesty and an attempt at silencing the echoing critiques.